Sunday, October 18, 2009

is life= taumatic or traumatic=life....

after crying all day long with swollen eyes and running nose with a day filled with sadness ...what makes my day ????its a comment on my blog ...really!!!!!it was indeed very nice of blogger042 2 hav written a comment...i felt nice when a completely unknown person had a bit of concern for me ...its a happy festive season...but for me the word happiness never existed in my life....every time one after the other somwething was gng wrong....financial crisis,relationship issues...family problems...and now my marriage life....am completely depressed and i dont know what 2 do .....u wont believe ..i hate the person whom iam getting married 2 ..really ....he such a jerk..he doesnt accept the way iam ....he wants me 2 do things which i dont want 2 do...iam loosing my ...i wonder whr this is gng 2 end...i just feel like as if am a free birl which is being pused into a cage....accepting toget married is the only wrong decision tht i hav taken on my life.....i wish i cud rewind time ..and rectify and undo things ...at this point of time i realise how much fun life was being with my bf(my x bf) really ......

Monday, October 5, 2009


life a complete struggle really ...i doono what 2 do ...i just wish i cud just run away ....i hav just few days of my wedding....and the most miserable thing has happened with my family....my elder bro ran away with a gal and got married....the environment of my house is as sqad like it is of a crimation ground...my parents cry day in and day out....and so do i...i never expected that my bro wud do something like this with us....its been a week since i hav had a sleep......i hav dark circles in my eyes my face is filled with pimples....and i hav my wedding in a few days...i just feel like droping the idea of getting married...but i cant do tht ...the invitations hav been printed the wedding caters and hall has been booked,.,.....life is completely fucked up...i wish was single...and financially independent...

Friday, September 11, 2009

LoL!!!!!!!!HILARIOUS










1)A POLE DANCER!!! 2)QUOTE ON A SENIOR 3) LOVE AAJ KAL!!!!!
CITIZENS SHIRT











addiction

as am not working nor studying ..i didnt know what 2 do + i dont socilize much now (cz me and my x boy friend hav common friends....i want 2 move on in life...so i prefer staying away from anything thats related 2 him) ....so i started blogging....now its become an addiction ...i blog atleast 4- 5 hrs in a day(omg!!!!!)....i never knew blogging wud be so much fun.....i lately realisted that iam always addicted 2 something or the other...after skool and b4 getting into college i was additcted 2 shisha ....then was addicted 2 friends and partying...then alcohol&smoking ...then it was my bf....then tv.....then chating ....youtube....music...and now blogging....life has seriously been a rollercoster...full of ups and downs...specially with relationship.....

i hav completely changed now from the person whom i was 4 yrs b4...




Thursday, September 10, 2009

thats me!!!

well i am some one who loves 2 read really....iam a fan of this blog called "compulsive confessor" i really like the way she writes.....that inspired me 2 rite a blog .....i hav studied in the best of the schools in india and abroad but still am very bad at writing...really !!! am a terrible writter...writing is an art ....i wish i was a good writer....if i was, .i could probably be able 2 express my feeling better....iam young...( early twenties)....just finished my graduation ...and am going 2 get married...iam getting married not becoz i want 2 .....but cz i didnt know what 2 study further ....or whch field 2 work ......and my parents were contantly bothering me and telling me "am doing nothing"....and am dependent on them....that made me come 2 a decision 2 agree 2 get married ...an arranged marriage....:)...it sucks though...but i didnt hav an option