is life= taumatic or traumatic=life....

after crying all day long with swollen eyes and running nose with a day filled with sadness ...what makes my day ????its a comment on my blog ...really!!!!!it was indeed very nice of blogger042 2 hav written a comment...i felt nice when a completely unknown person had a bit of concern for me ...its a happy festive season...but for me the word happiness never existed in my life....every time one after the other somwething was gng wrong....financial crisis,relationship issues...family problems...and now my marriage life....am completely depressed and i dont know what 2 do .....u wont believe ..i hate the person whom iam getting married 2 ..really ....he such a jerk..he doesnt accept the way iam ....he wants me 2 do things which i dont want 2 do...iam loosing my ...i wonder whr this is gng 2 end...i just feel like as if am a free birl which is being pused into a cage....accepting toget married is the only wrong decision tht i hav taken on my life.....i wish i cud rewind time ..and rectify and undo things ...at this point of time i realise how much fun life was being with my bf(my x bf) really ......