is life= taumatic or traumatic=life....

after crying all day long with swollen eyes and running nose with a day filled with sadness ...what makes my day ????its a comment on my blog ...really!!!!!it was indeed very nice of blogger042 2 hav written a comment...i felt nice when a completely unknown person had a bit of concern for me ...its a happy festive season...but for me the word happiness never existed in my life....every time one after the other somwething was gng wrong....financial crisis,relationship issues...family problems...and now my marriage life....am completely depressed and i dont know what 2 do .....u wont believe ..i hate the person whom iam getting married 2 ..really ....he such a jerk..he doesnt accept the way iam ....he wants me 2 do things which i dont want 2 do...iam loosing my ...i wonder whr this is gng 2 end...i just feel like as if am a free birl which is being pused into a cage....accepting toget married is the only wrong decision tht i hav taken on my life.....i wish i cud rewind time ..and rectify and undo things ...at this point of time i realise how much fun life was being with my bf(my x bf) really ......

life a complete struggle really ...i doono what 2 do ...i just wish i cud just run away ....i hav just few days of my wedding....and the most miserable thing has happened with my family....my elder bro ran away with a gal and got married....the environment of my house is as sqad like it is of a crimation ground...my parents cry day in and day out....and so do i...i never expected that my bro wud do something like this with us....its been a week since i hav had a sleep......i hav dark circles in my eyes my face is filled with pimples....and i hav my wedding in a few days...i just feel like droping the idea of getting married...but i cant do tht ...the invitations hav been printed the wedding caters and hall has been booked,.,.....life is completely fucked up...i wish was single...and financially independent...